Date: 2008-08-04 23:39 Subject: Ahhhhhhh! Security: Public

Life is like a box of chocolates...

It melts into a big gooey surprise filled puddle of stickiness all over your formerly laundered white button down just when you least can afford it. Man...I really want some chocolate right now. And pie. Chocolate pie. Mmm. With whip cream and oreo pieces like they have at burger king, but i can't eat because i'm on a diet ...which according to the experts should be less of a diet and more of a way of life. *sniffles* the bastards. a way of life without chocolate sundae pie is sad. 

*sniffles again*

In further news, it's August now (hello trembling on the precipe of falling almost autumn leaves *waves*) and i've begun my pre-Nanowrimo writing madness. I shall be done by October 31st! I shall! Hurrah, all hail the patron saint of writing whomsoever that should be! 

The final tally is at 11 WIPs. I left out one HP story (A thousand faces of fear) one Qaf story (long, untitled B/J fic *because let's face it, there's qaf in my BJ not the other way around) and one HP/Qaf/SV supercrossover of doom (Leaning with the Wind). These bad boys are entirely too f'ing long to be completed in an orderly, timely fashion, and they shall not screw with my linguistic feng shui. So they're being back burnered until after Nanowrimo. So 

Date: 2008-07-19 15:34 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I had my nephews over yesterday, brought them to visit with their grandmother for a bit. They're 4 and 2. The oldest one tells my mother, in this sweet high-pitched serious voice completely out of the blue: "You know, grandma? I'm really gonna miss you when you die." 

Because apparently....at 53 she's really really old. One leg in the grave.

Man, I love them. I haven't laughed that hard in ...well, since the last time he was here, pointed at a strip club we passed and said "that's where the ladies dance. Mommy told daddy to stop going there."

Date: 2008-07-10 19:30 Subject: If i weren't so lazy I'd find a lightbulb icon... Security: Public

...for I just had the bestest idea. You know what would be cool? A challenge where you got to pick the author instead of the fic. It could be like a fishbowl type exercise starting with a few select people (authors) and a wider audience providing feedback. 

Or Instead! How about a challenge where everyone gets the same parameters -- which would have to be pretty specific to be interesting. Like timmy falls down the well, lassie has a sex change, season 2 crossover with Roswell. :) It'd be cheating if you just gave fandom and something general like gen lassie saves the day and the family is greatful.  You know what would be the coolest? I bet there wouldn't be one single fic that would be the same. 


OOO! oooOoOOO! What if you combined? Multiple authors chosen by one person to complete a specific fic, discussion commences! OmG I need to stop thinking about challenges and get back to writing.

Date: 2008-07-06 23:34 Subject: Smallville WIPs... Security: Public

So again, help me choose which one to finish first

Date: 2008-07-02 18:29 Subject: 3 things about me that you need not know but I'm going to share anyway Security: Public

Item # 1) I like plans. A lot. With a fervor previously assigned to avid fans of pro-wrestling, reality television. And Clay Aiken. Which is to say with somethign approaching obsession and not so subtle undertones of "I will humilate myself in pursuit of acquiring a symbol of my obsession." Case in point: I named all five of my potential future children. Just in case. Because although I don't want children, well, things happen and far be it for me to be left in a lurch without a name. I might...find five nameless orphans on my doorstep in the middle of the night and then what would I do? Which I guess wouldn't be such a bad quality except plans never go they way they're planned (heh) which means you must revise, modify, go back to the drawing board. et cetera.   

Item # 2) I have a vivid imagination that is not always used for good. When I was little? I thought skittles literally turned into a rainbow in your stomach after you ate them. (taste the rainbow, after all) and so that must mean there was a potato mountain range, green pea valley, and broccoli trees with little rivers of milk, water, and pink lemonade down there too.  

Item # 3) Writing really doesn't take me that long. Once I get into a story I can usually finish it (without sucktastic consequences like typos-o-hell and plotholes one could drive a chevy through) in about a three or four days depending on length. But without un-self-imposed deadlines? It might as well be three to four years.

And how do these three things combine to culminate into one theme for today? They make writing a suck-ass hard task. Unless I'm in the middle of a flow  I never know where to start or what to start with and then I get distracted by more ideas and ...well, months pass and I'm in a fine pickle of having 10 unfinished stories to finish. 

Finally: I think I need help. I've decided to publically announce an ETA for all current wips. *sweats* October 31 2008, i will be finished _everything_ it will be word checked, it will be decent, it will be complete and done and Christ. Over. Then and only then may i move on to other projects. 

So what I need help with? I'm not sure where to start with them. i have basically 4 fandoms: HP, SV, Qaf, and Crossovers. And god, that doesn't even include my Gargoyles stuff from back in the day (and for simplicity sake it won't). 

I'm going post each wip from each category along with an excerpt and if you all would be so kind as to let me know what you'd prefer seeing first? (from each category) That would be uber-cool. Harry Potter up first

Date: 2008-06-22 17:04 Subject: And on this day Security: Public

At this hour... I solemnly swear that when I have children? I'm skipping the teenage years. Just flying over them. Maybe boarding school, or bootcamp, or something. I had three teenage girls over this weekend, and I think I'm dead. Two of which are staying for a month *twitches*. And it's not that they're horrible or anything, its just that i'm very used to havign things _stay_ where I put them. You know, food, clothes, the remote... my sanity. And once upon a time I didn't have to bargain over dinner (do you want this? Okay, what if we have this instead of this and I'll give you this?). So yes. 

Just spent $70.00 on the movies. The Love guru. Which...well, Should have really been called the the Penis-monologue, for all the jokes about that appendage. Outside of the "naughty" factor (an intrigue one often loses past the age of thirteen) there really wasn't anything funny about a hockey player named Le Coq (the cock)  a love guru with a chastity belt that dinged everytime he got an erection and (presumably) his penis hit against the metal of his copper underpants, or a manager named Richard but called Dick.

Sadly disappointed. 

 

Date: 2008-06-09 22:00 Subject: A day late and a dollar short... Security: Public

So there's this shelf in my house where I keep all those moderately broken-and-of-no-sentimental-value-but-damn-it's-still-GOOD-I-won't-throw-it-out items. They're little things that need to be done, a piece of scotch tape, batteries added, a screwdriver to tighten a loose screw... that sort of thing. And I fully intend to do it. FULLY. But at the time that it needs getting done something else has my attention, a child crying, dinner burning, an appointment that can't be missed, or perhaps just the lack of knowledge about the whereabouts of said screwdriver. So they get added to the shelf. Lately though...through no fault of my own...it's been looking rather less like a shelf and more like...well, its own separate room. 

Question: Does it say something about the state of affairs of your life when a shelf such as this threatens to consume the rest of the house? It's turned into the beast that clutters. Nothing terribly vile, but slowly its inching its way onto more and more counterspace. I think..I think one day it might eat me in revenge. Roaring and slobbering all over itself with falling out stuffing and sad whines of dying power: "Where's our stitching?" It'll spew "2 double A batteries, is that hard ?"  I'm frightened for my life.

In further news, my computer is a cheating little sly bastard. We've been playing chess against each other and as I improve in skill it insists I have only won through draws. When I complain it offers the option of rematch or exiting. That's it. Cheating Bastard. When it wins no such option exists. It gloats and throws up the statistics screen. Sorry, you've lost, it says. Would you like to play again? It's not the losing so much that annoys me, it's the slyness, and the fact that it's a poor winner. Plus, blatant cheating. Draw my right buttcheck. 

Sorry norcumi this week's been a mess, or rather last week and the wreckage is spilling into this one, I haven't had an opportunity to finish anything. I have, however, been writing on a few projects. I can't believe how many things I have to complete. It's brain-exploding, really. And frightening. I will not add further projects until current ones are done. I just won't. I'll never be done at this rate if I keep adding stuff.  Methinks the challenges were perhaps not the best ideas ever. I did finish stuff but everything else languished in a little pile of forgotten despair. I don't know where to even start there's so much. Bouncing around figuring out what to write for the weekly thing...I was at a loss because there's just so _much_ to complete. I think i might do a poll later to see what people would prefer to see completed first.  

Anyway, not a finished drabble or even a finished chapter but something's better than nothing, right? It could count as a chapter-lette. Crossover HP/SV/Qaf (how I wish someone had done that *le sigh*) it came about as an extension from svmadelyn and seperis' Kink and Cliche challenge from some time ago: 

Date: 2008-06-01 23:33 Subject: SV something Security: Public

 Well this is the second time I'll be attempting to post this. Bastard of a thing. Technology hates me. 

Okay, so you said concentrate on getting _something_ out... and my mind took that to mean "NEW STORY *poing!*" I so totally blame you norcumi. 

Smallville, probably will end up Clex, AU Clark in college. Other than that I've no idea where this is going yet, but this seem to be moving rather quickly. The question, however, is where.

Date: 2008-05-30 20:24 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

 Life has a funny way...of sneaking up on you 


I have a horrible tendency of disappearing for a few months at a time (both online and in rl -- feel not stilted friendly journal watchers there is equal shafting for all) and I realize its hardly fair for those of you who are still following my fic. Part of the reason for this, i fear, is my complete and total inability to comprehend updates without product. Do you all really care what's going on between stories? Or do you come for fic alone? It seems rather like a tease to me, Here look! Journal has been updated! Scroll...scroll... went to work....scroll....rhaposidized about the plight of austrian dodo-like sea birds...scroll...attacked by a squirrell...scroll..fic will be completed in a year or two...end. The mind boggles. But that's me. Others might feel differently. 


I think there should be mini-resolutions. New season resolutions! So you get a do-over once a season, as one would a fashion statement <aside: my sartorial reputation would be lost without the restorative powers of a winter line.>  Here's my summer resolution. I will complete at least a bloody chapter of _something_ in a month. If i have to get up at five to write. The problem mostly is a lack of time. I work from 6:30-7:00 in some fashion (school, work, etc.) finish up assignments afterhours, clean the house as needed (i.e. when dishes threaten to run away on principle as surely there are more appreciative households who understand the benefits of wash, rinse, repeat) and somehow wittle away the rest of my night before falling into an exhausted heap on my bed. Hmm...seemed like i had more to do before i typed that out. Okay, the problem is that I'm a shiftless layabout.  I thought the challenges would be a good way to break me back into writing. Which it sort of did...however my stories suffered for it. Never before have they been such incomprehensible tangential grammatically-shy pitiful little things. So clearly that method has more cons than pros. I'm running out of ideas. Which leads me to two spin-off trains of thought: 

1) I posted a note on here the other day (other day in the sense of # of posts not length of time) about how the world has wronged me, people are critical, and more bitchtastic whines of a popular year. I said I'd be more explicit  when I could refer to it explicitly (it was part of an anonymous fest) and then once I got over my feelings being hurt...realized that it was ...well, a bitchtastic whine. In a sentence or two: I participated in hpvalensmut and wrote a fic for it which generated a heated debate on a reccer's journal... For being utter shite and sodomizing (in "an anti-life affirming" sort of way) the genteel sensibilities of readers everywhere. Admittedly many many mistakes were made in that fic, duly acknowledged. But it took me some time to get past the knee-jerk bitterness spurred by their reactions to...well, no longer be bitter. 

2) I ...think I forgot two. Hmm... hang on. 


Oh! I'm currently writing a Harry Potter story for violet_quill's latest challenge. It's a George/Lucius fic (the characters were randomly drawn) which will be soooooooo late it's ridiculous and hence will be more "inspired" by the challenge than included as part of it. But after that I think  I figured out what I've been doing wrong with Un-Orphaned (as I can't get past 2 chapters and it's screwing up my feng-shui for unrelated fics as it is the bastard illegitamite red-headed step-child in my ass [colorful politically incorrectness]) so I'm going to try again from a different angle. Also? I kind of have an idea for another B/J fic 

I'm scared because it is growing in my mind as a gigantic epic proporitioned story longer than Cross-Reference

.... and that's before I started writing anything of significance down. If you know anything at all about me, you'll realize things triple in size once I start writing (for example: this was supposed to be a _short_ note). Anyway. B/J with appearances of other relationships in their lives prior to season one through season four and a mythical season five. Summary: The thing people always forget is even without Brian Kinney, Justin Taylor is hardly an innocent.   

Okay. That is all.

Of fine. One more thing:

P.S. The only thing ironic about Alanis Morissette's Ironic? The fact that there's not one single example of irony in the entire song. Satire, Purposeful play on words? Hope springs eternal.

Date: 2008-04-07 23:48 Subject: Serendipity H/D Part 3/3 last section Security: Public

Title: Serendipity
Author: Cara del sol (laciudad)
Requested by:  best_of_five
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco
Summary: There’s a reason wizards prefer pumpkin juice, all wizard-born know this. Good thing Harry was raised Muggle.  
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning(s): Some license taken with certain events. Het relationship in the beginning
Word Count: ~ 10 k

Note: Epilogue - compliant (to a point) So..um..this? Was totally supposed to be a pwp. I suck. Sincere thanks to painless_j for turning this legible. 
 

Date: 2008-04-07 23:41 Subject: Serendipity 3/3 {Harry Potter: H/D} Security: Public

Title: Serendipity
Author: Cara del sol (laciudad)
Requested by:  best_of_five

Pairing(s): Harry/Draco
Summary: There’s a reason wizards prefer pumpkin juice, all wizard-born know this. Good thing Harry was raised Muggle.  

Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning(s): Some license taken with certain events. Het relationship in the beginning
Word Count: ~ 10 k

Note: Epilogue - compliant (to a point) So..um..this? Was totally supposed to be a pwp. I suck. Sincere thanks to painless_j for turning this legible. 

Date: 2008-04-07 23:08 Subject: Serendipity Part 2/3 {Harry Potter: H/D} Security: Public

Title: Serendipity
Author: Cara del sol (laciudad)
Requested by:  best_of_five

Pairing(s): Harry/Draco
Summary: There’s a reason wizards prefer pumpkin juice, all wizard-born know this. Good thing Harry was raised Muggle.  

Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning(s): Some license taken with certain events. Het relationship in the beginning
Word Count: ~ 10 k

Note: Epilogue - compliant (to a point) So..um..this? Was totally supposed to be a pwp. I suck. Sincere thanks to painless_j for turning this legible. 
  

Date: 2008-04-07 23:08 Subject: Serendipity Part 1/3 {Harry Potter: H/D} Security: Public

Title: Serendipity
Author: Cara del sol (laciudad)
Requested by:  best_of_five

Pairing(s): Harry/Draco
Summary: There’s a reason wizards prefer pumpkin juice, all wizard-born know this. Good thing Harry was raised Muggle.  

Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning(s): Some license taken with certain events. Het relationship in the beginning
Word Count: ~ 10 k

Note: Epilogue - compliant (to a point) So..um..this? Was totally supposed to be a pwp. I suck. Sincere thanks to painless_j for turning this legible.  

  

Date: 2008-04-04 01:56 Subject: Back in the day... Security: Public Mood: frustrated

You know how people rhapsodize about a time past? Back in the good old days? I'm kinda missing the times when people were deliberately insulting and that was it. It gets ever so much more complicated when they don't mean to be. 

I am working in a profession that has been stigmatized and belittled and undervalued for many many years, and i can't tell you how many times i have to work hard to get my clients to believe even seeking therapy isn't a weakness in itself. This, is sad. In a day and age when people should know better than to downplay the necessity of seeking an objective experienced voice, they're instead made to feel terrible about choosing to seek services. 

I've been hitting that wall a lot lately, where you really have to undo the damage others have done with the things they've said and the attitudes they've taken regarding the stereotyped "counseling is for crazy people." It doesn't help that many of my clients are questioning their sexual identities and are therefore dealt a double whammy of "society says being gay/bisexual/transgendered is weak. society says getting counseling is weak. Weak = bad. I therefore can't be or do either." So when people wittingly or not prescribe to a particular stereotypical way of thinking, and therefore reinforce this mindset and feeling...it really irks me. 

Really. Like pisses me off, bitchslap irk. Why is it that people associate your sexual position, or your role in your household with being weak or strong? Submissive versus dominant? In many healthy relationships the balance is alot more circumstantial then any one person forever playing one role (in fact, I'm willing to say in _all_ healthy relationships there must be a give and take in terms of who is the "strong" one at any given time).

I could rant about this all day. In Qaf it really pissed me off that Cowlip wanted to rescind that sex scene with Brian where Justin tops. Not because i viewed it as the relationship finally coming into balance because i believe "topping" means having a certain level of control, but because Brian believed that and he was able to be vulnerable with Justin in that way. Because he was able to communicate with him on that level and that was pretty much all he had. However, was Justin the weaker more submissive party without that scene? No. In many ways he's always been the more dominant one. He knew what he wanted out of the relationship, he manipulated (in a happy sort of way) Brian into wanting it to, he stuck to his guns and he went and got it. Brian's been following his lead to a greater or lesser extent throughout their relationship. 

Sometimes a sexual position is just that. A sexual position, a preference in penetrating or being penetrated. Turning it into a top or bottom, dominant or submissive, equation perpetuates the stereotype that there must be a "weaker" party in a same sex relationship. Which perpetuates the idea that in order to be in a same sex relationship someone has to concede and be "weak."  And who wants to do that? Doing that means "something is wrong" with you. You have a problem, you're weird, you're bad, you're wrong. It becomes a long cycle of shame, blame, and fucked up reasoning.

Date: 2008-03-07 22:04 Subject: 5 words.... Security: Public Mood: ecstatic

Oh My God, New Amsterdam. 


Holy nova-immortal, batman. I'm too excited to squee.  I think...I have...another fandom..eeep! 

You know what though? I'm really missing Highlander. 

That is all.

Date: 2008-03-05 22:57 Subject: Meme Fic! Security: Public

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Date: 2008-03-02 20:27 Subject: Harry/Draco: Falling Arse over Tit (Chapter 1) Security: Public

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Date: 2008-02-24 23:15 Subject: Qaf B/J: Feels like a New Beginning Security: Public

Title: Feels Like a New Beginning

Author: Cara del sol / laciudad
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Sometimes moving on… doesn’t mean leaving everything behind 
Warning: Unrepentantly unconscionable sap.  

Disclaimer: I own nothing, thank Cowlip and Showtime. :)

Spoilers: Post 513

Date: 2008-02-24 22:38 Subject: HP/DM Security: Public

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Date: 2008-02-18 23:25 Subject: Cleaning out the hard-drive... Security: Public

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